Higher Than Mountain

Hi Bloggers, Did it occur to you that a person gives you a high expectation when you can’t really be as good as expected? Well, it did occur to me.

Last week, during the class, as usual I did not really prepare before coming into the class. Just to let you know, every student is given a set of questions, which required to be answered before the class. So, I did prepare for some of the questions, only some.

During the class, I volunteered to answer the first few questions. What I had in mind was, since I have answered few questions (earlier), that would exempt me from answering the later questions.

But I was wrong. When it came to the last question, my lecturer asked “Can anyone answer this question? What is the significance of this case on the Professional Misconduct?” I turned to silent because I did not even have the case, far from reading it (my bad, I know).

Then she called my name. “So Hafiq…what do you think the answer?” Again, I kept silence. Because seriously I do not know the answer as I did not have the case with me.

She later said this in front of my classmates. “Hafiq, aren’t you supposed to know it better?”

In response, I just smiled at her. But deep in my heart, I did not really like what she said and what she had in her mind.

My lecturer knows that I was once a mooter (law debater). But she missed the fact that, I am not as good as the other mooters. For God sake, she could have such expectation towards others, but not me. That was so wrong.

Wrong person, wrong thought, wrong expectation, many wrongs.

I was quite embarrassed by that. Sigh. I just do not like being given high expectation because I am not good enough.

This is what one of my classmates, Nad@Citapus said when she commented on this entry;

"i know whch lecturer u r refering to hafiq..ehe.sumtimes i felt bad for u too..sbb dlm cls u'r alwys be presumed to know almost evrything.x fair kn?i think its quite a burden.uhu.xpela hafiq..tggl ag bpe kls je..u tabah je la..ehehe :D"

Thank you nad, for acknowledging my suffering. But the worst part is, I will still be in her class next semester. Yeah, I will try to bear it for another few lectures. But next semester, can I survive? I doubt it. Sigh

Regards,

HHB, If-I-could-Be-Really-Good